The energy.

By the feel of the energy I know someone is there

Someone is not really the way to explain it

I know the energy, I know I am not alone, I know the energy does not mean harm, but there it is

I can feel someone behind me, feel their hand on my shoulder 

No, just breathe you know there is nothing there

Just a feeling of not being alone, of being afraid of the unknown 

But what is that smell? Like pipe tobacco or cigarettes mixed together 

There are two energies I feel, this seems all so wrong, it is so unsettling 

I must be rational, must not let this shake me, I must be strong, ignore what I feel 

I am starting to panic, I can feel it rising up, my breath is quicker & I start to sweat

All of a sudden the energy changes, there is a third there, another energy 

The smell gets stronger, Brandi, cigarettes, pipe tobacco & scotch fill my nose

As I stand there trying not to panic, a very familiar set of arms embrace me & calm me

Then two more join those arms, & then another two 

In my mind I can see clearly who it is, my family of elders who have passed on

Came back to check, to make sure me & mine are doing well.

6 Comments

  1. mentalnotes1 says:

    Totally relatable, I pray for my husband to visit me in my dreams, I miss him so much! Beautiful<3

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    1. Ellpoet says:

      Thank you so much. It’s hard when we loose a loved one, it’s comforting to feel their presence.

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  2. merrildsmith says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss!
    My mom died last April in the first Covid wave. And I still miss my dad, though it’s been over twenty years.

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    1. ellysapoet says:

      Thank you, it is hard, it’s something you always carry I think.

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      1. merrildsmith says:

        Yes, I think so.

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