I have often said my birthday is cursed, there is always emotional drama or sickness, this happens every year without fail.
My mum does debate this, as I have had happy birthdays as a child. This is true, as I got older things changed.
It really started on my 21st when I walked in on my partner cheating with my ex. I am sure you can all imagine how I felt in the middle of the party, I have not done the speeches, I am witnessing betrayal of my heart.
From then on, every birthday things have been fairly dark in my birthday. This year I worked hard to change my frame of mind, I wanted a good birthday.
As if on queue, four days before my birthday, I am verbally abused in my driveway by someone I love & respect, someone I thought was there for me. I was angry, confused, bewildered to say the least.
The worst thing, our daughter paused her show so she could hear everything. Once I have started to process, I feel completely abandoned, betrayed, used, worthless. This is not ok.
Then of course the night before my birthday I have an argument with my girlfriend. We are both so stubborn. And yes we are all good.
So, it’s now midday on my birthday & I want to hide. It’s my first birthday without my father, the grieving is still strong.
My beautiful girlfriend has absolutely saved the day, not only by being there, but making sure I feel loved. How I got so lucky I don’t know. Our daughter has been full of compliments.
Maybe next year can be a good one?