For Mum. Thank you for your endless love & care.
Her light blonde hair lightly brushes her shoulders as she walks up the hallway, freshly brushed & a fresh coat of lipstick is all she needs to do
Naturally beautiful she does not need the make up others wear, she is not aware of how people take notice
Her husband is, she smiles to herself, she knows he does not tolerate others looking at her, he has somewhat mellowed over the years
The fighting nature he had at university has turned into a fighting nature in the boardroom
As she walks up the hallway she can smell the familiar scent of pipe tobacco in the air
This is a comforting smell, all though this is comforting it also makes her sneeze
She walks into the dining room, lightly smoothing her hair, she looks to the right, across the bar to a man with short wavy black hair
As he looks up at her, she can feel her eyes start to twinkle & then fill with love
As she looks into his eyes, she watches as his do the same, & then that final look of disbelief she married him
She knows he adores her, loves her unconditionally, as she does him, yes he can be hard to deal with at times, he can be happy irrational & quick to anger at other times
But he does calm down quickly, he knows he can be irrational, his mind is always going so quick she thinks, no wonder he gets wound up
She can see he is starting to relax, finally starting to let go of the day he had, full of meetings & negotiations, fighting in the boardroom
She hates to disturb him, but he is rarely home at this hour, not in time to put the kids the bed
The kids love to see him before sleep, love to run & cuddle up to the big teddy bear of a man they call Dad
Their daughter has been known to fly into his arms with excitement when he gets home, she is an emotional one she thinks to herself, very emotional like him.
She softly says that it’s time for the kids to go to bed, gently asking him to come & say goodnight, he gives her a slight smile & nods
She knows he will come, he rarely says no to her, & the children, well he would not deny them this time with him
As she walks away, she takes in the sound of ice swirling in a glass, knowing there will be scotch in the glass
She knew the children were his pride & joy, he loved their children, they were both so proud of their intelligent, chatty children, opposites of each other, yet similar in so many ways
She knows that in a few years, these children will be far too grown up, she wants to enjoy the time they have together now
Years later, she looks at an empty scotch glass sitting on the shelf, she hears the ice tinkling around, the smell of scotch & tobacco
The memories of a life well lived come flooding back, she thinks of him, she can see him standing up against the wall of the balcony
Their grown children, one on either side of him, their daughter wrapping her arm around him to keep him warm
His son on the other side, shifting closer without being aware, to share a little more body heat with this man they both admire
She thinks to herself, he was right about the children, the daughter has a mind that is very different, & emotions that can run out of control, she is her father’s daughter
Their son is more like her, more practical & calm, he thinks things through, he is also intelligent like his father
She can feel his warmth surround her, can feel the love he has for her, she knows she gave him the greatest gift she could
Others thought it was too much, but not to her, not for him, to keep him at home, comfortable & surrounded by her love & care until his last week
This is what he wanted, after 50 years of marriage, she wanted to be by his side, she can grieve the loss after, & she wants to be there for this precious time
She is comforted by the knowledge he is at peace, & out of pain, takes comfort in the knowledge he is with the god they believe in.
She knows he lived a rich & happy life, she knows that he was at peace in the end, at peace with moving on.